Tuesday, October 24, 2006

report..

mulai yang mana dulu? hehehehe...

ok, dua hari yang lalu akhirnya gue jadi pergi ama DIA *which one? read the previous post*. ke starbucks klcc, ngupi2. intinya kita ngobrolin banyak hal yang berujung pada...

1. gue, FoT, harus berhenti maen2 dalam urusan pacaran
2. gue, FoT, kalo dapet cw yang selanjutnya harus serius *yg sebelumnya juga serius!* dan kalo bisa jadi yang terakhir *amien*
3. dia, ada deh want to know aja, harus lebih niat dan berusaha buat nyari pacar

yah, begitulah kesimpulan pertemuan hari itu. menyenangkan dan gue jadi tau banyak hal soal dia. dan bener...GA SEMUA YANG LO DENGER ITU BENER! sampe jumpa di postingan selanjutnya..*ga mood ngepost, lagi suasana hari raya idul fitri*

MET HARI RAYA IDUL FITRI
MAAF LAHIR BATIN YAH


FoT

Monday, October 23, 2006

God and cosmos

i know God is The All-Knowing, so do the cosmos that He made. but i never thought it is so damn obvious that cosmos *i know Allah is behind all these things* tells all the 'secrets' that only me, my bestfriends, and God know, through its own way. call me syirik or wutever, but dont u guys remember the horoscope of mine few days back? it says "....pursuing a better understanding of a partnership is where your focus should be. A relationship will take a turn and a decision will have to be made. "

it happened. it is happening to me now. and again, i'll only share those 'things' with myself, my trustee, my God, and cosmos, and let God and cosmos show the magic again. God, im, ur humble servant, asking YOU to show me the way. the right way, the straight path, siratal mustakim. please...show me...

FoT
YOUR humble servant

Sunday, October 22, 2006

God really knows how....

assalamualaikum wr.wb

tanpa mengurangi rasa hormat, saya, Father of Tololisme, menyatakan bahwa....

SAYA BINGUNG!!

hahaha...laugh at me...laugh!!!! *im tired of laughing*

giling, Allah emang tau banget gimana cara ngetest hambanya. Tau banget hambanya mudah galau dan terpengaruh. Cuman perlu beberapa detik untuk bikin gue bengong, terpana, ga percaya, dan akhirnya mengganggu apa yang ada di dalam hati dan otak, semua pertimbangan jadi goyah.

Yup, semua pertimbangan jadi goyah. Gimana ngga?! beberapa menit yang lalu gue dapet sms dari orang yang ga akan pernah gue bayangin bakal ngesms gue duluan. maaf gue ga bisa cerita siapa orangnya, tapi orang ini emang bikin penasaran dari pertama kenal. she's so unpredictable, more unpredictable than the one i've told u before. I know she sms me because she has nobody else to sms. hahahaha..tapi ngajak jalan ke starbucks? huhu...that's huge! yang parahnya, gue ga suka kaya gini neh. di saat 'tujuang asal' sedang adem ayem, menghilang tanpa jejak, tiba2 didatangkan 'yang ini'. gue ga tau apa tujuan Allah, ngetes iman atau mau menunjukkan kebenaran? cw yang satu ini 180 derajat beda ama cw yang gue bakal keluar lebaran hari kedua *anyway, why both of them pick starbucks in the first place? must be a reason behind that!*

tapi intinya, gue bakal tetep keluar malem ini. berniat di mulut untuk menolong dia tapi di dalem hati, otak dan pikiran? ga ada yang tau. not even my own self. so guys, please pray for me. whatever happen, may it be the best and the last? *i need an end* thanks guys.

FoT

salah satu kisah lama...

the 6th blog in 3 days...*ngejar setoran euy!*

hahaha..i just watched coyote ugly on tv. bring back the old memories of high school. ga inget pastinya kapan, kelas 1 atau 2 sma *yang pasti bukan kelas 3 sma*, tapi coyote ugly membangkitkan kenangan masa lalu semasa gue di bandung *halah2..semakin pagi bahasanya semakin ga kuku!*

bandel2nya gue, males2nya sekolah, apa yang ada cuman maen, maen dan maen pas jaman2 itu. and i just realised that it was 5 years ago? my God..time flies! sma 3, bandung indah plaza, tya dan gengnya *termasuk desiree*, dance dance revolution, mcD, bazar 3 taun 2001, coyote ugly *of course*, pacar ke-8, pacar ke-9 dst *hahahaha*, lapangan bali, bakso dan es campur lapbal, antapani-ciroyom, es lambada *yang bisa nambah es dan sirupnya* dan banyak lagi. dan itu cuman sebagian kecil..believe me, i have more to tell if i can remember.

inti dari post ini *hahahaha..udah kaya karangan* adalah, im caught in the middle of my life. sometimes my future tries to drag me, the past tries to pull me back and the current moment wants me to stay, not even move. and those three aint help me at all, burden me adalah. just imagine when u try to build up ur future and suddenly ur past or the current situation forces to let go the future. damn! well, im not starting to curcol again here. enough i guess, but just wanna give u some pictures of wut am i suffering here.

I am trying to move on, build up my future but the current situation makes everything uncertain and i wish i can go back and live my past. complicated huh? well, try to live it! though i bet everyone of us is experiencing more or less the same thing, i always think that im in the worst situation. please guys, tell me that im not...

anyway, i should stop this. hahahaha..just started for les than 3 days and i've told u my whole story! hahahaha...kalian semua pasti pengen muntah. hahahaha..sapa suruh masuk kesini?! tolol lo jadinya!!

FoT
*im out*

Saturday, October 21, 2006

ttm *teka teki mengelirukan* alias ctt -> baca si tete *confusing tic tac*



berapa orang yang anda lihat pada gambar di atas? hau meni persen ken u si ferom de pikcer ebof? sigana aya sabaraha jalmi di gambar nu di luhur? agak2 ade berapa orang kat gambak kat atas tu? kam rajul fi foto *teuing, poho euy!*?

peserta dengan jawaban paling mendekati nyata akan mendapatkan hadiah dari saya. terbuka untuk umum, 24 jam. *wc di 7eleven maksudnya* dont forget ur matric number and section number *bisa pahili jeung babaturan ti seksen lain* jawaban ditunggu sampai ada orang yang menjawab bener. for more details please dial 0809-8-9999 *nya heeh, kumaha rek poting lamun can connect ka internet*

FoT
*mendekati khayal menuju batas akhir kewarasan*

when everybody...

yup..

saat semua orang sedang 'menikmati' suasana menjelang lebaran dan meresapi sisa2 bulan ramadhan, im still here, doing nothing than worrying about something that i shouldnt worry too much. come on, it's only another crush, another girl *or it isnt ONLY?*

hey, bring me back the feeling of ramadhan and ied!! i hate being like this!!

FoT
Place i call home
9.28 PM according to my laptop

kebetulan (atau bukan?)

bertemu lagi kita...hehehehe

gue pengen nunjukin sesuatu

ARIES (March 21-April 19): Travel, getting together with peers and pursuing a better understanding of a partnership is where your focus should be. A relationship will take a turn and a decision will have to be made. Choose wisely. 3 stars (retrieved 21-10-2006)

ok2, sebelum gue ngejelasin lebih jauh gue pengen nerangin dulu kalo gebetan gue tuh percaya banget ama horoscope especially yang dari the star. so i was wondering wut the horoscope says for today. jadi barusan gue turun ke warung nyari koran but the uncle kedai said that today is DEEPAVALI *selamat merayakan*, so koran ga ada. then i checked the online version and it is available. ga perlu diceritainlah bagian gebetan gue, fokus disini dan fokus di semuanya is MINE, my part.

baru tadi malem dan beberapa malem sebelumnya gue ngediskusiin soal masalah gue dalam menjalin sebuah hubungan ama 2 sahabat gue tercinta *tai lah bahasanya*. and the discussion was exactly just like wut the horoscope said. damn, what a coincidence. walau kata orang2 ESQ, ga ada yang kebetulan. umh, ada yang bisa membantu gue? im lost, seriously.

FoT

kan kejadian kan?

guys *hahahaha..though no one read this blog yet*

hola..saturday morning, bit gloomy and waking up late just ruin the whole mood for today. anyway, apa yang takutin beneran kejadian. anjis lah, nih cewe bener2 unpredictable. kadang HANGAT *sehangat mentari di pagi hari..halah* tapi kadang2 tiis *huhu..hiks2*. jadi sejak kejadian ngajak ngeblog bareng ampe hari ini, kaya udah ga ada apa2 lagi. ok2, we are still smsing each other. eventhough garing gila. yeah..and i think she lost her sense of humor. i always tell her joke since the early days and she used to reply, walopun cuman ketawa2an doank. but now, huhu..i think she lost her interest on me..or she never be interested on me at all. hahahahaha..kasian banget gue *hiks2...*

udah dua hari sms dia garing pisan. dia jadi yang jarang bales. apakah dia terganggu? atau pulsa dia menipis? tapi gue males mikir yang macem2. atau semua yang dia berikan sebelum ini hanya kesenangan yang semu? *hahahaha..lieur aing beul!* and currently im chatting ama temen gue yang nyomblangin gue. and curcol..*curhat colongan* ama dia...kata dia mungkin my gebetan *halah..taik banget bahasanya* lagi sibuk. yah, mungkin2...dia kan pengacara, pengangguran banyak acara.

males ah gue mikir terlalu banyak. jalanin aja ya kan? lagian rencana gue ama dia buat ketemuan pas lebaran hari kedua buat ngebikin blog di salah satu starbucks di KL masih jadi kok *hahahaha..maaf, ga akan ada yang gue kasi tau. takut kalian mengganggu.* sudahlah yah, lega rasanya meluahkan semuanya disini. hahahahaha..its 12.05pm already...mandi ah...till next post(s) guys...

FoT

Friday, October 20, 2006

(re)start blogging

a big HI.. to everybody

yeah..im (re)starting blogging again. i used to blog somewhere else but then i stop and here i am. gue ga tau kenapa milih ngeblog disini rather than friendster. maybe, i just wanna make this a private one *though no such thing as private on the net*, but at least there'll be less people read this. hahahahaha..gue sebenernya kemakan omongan gue sendiri. few days back, ada temen gue yang nanya "lo ko ga ngeblog? katanya anak journalism" *those conv. actually was in BM and Eng, gue translate ke indo*. trus gue jawab, "gue bukan anak journalism, dan gue ada tendensi buat nyeritain hal pribadi gue di blog" *see..im doing it now again..hahahaha..f%!k*. then she replied "maybe i should have stop blogging too *she has one*" and suddenly THING came up after that. dia ngajak ngeblog bareng.

bingung sampe sini? confused? hahahaha..this is why you guys shouldnt read this blog. hahaha..sampah. but anyway, i have to finish this one. umh, THING gue gedein soalnya..*hopefully she's not gonna read this* dia gebetan *aman ga ya?* gue. gue ga pernah ngeblog bareng atau share any account with seseorang yang gue suka. yah, mungkin pernah tukeran password friendster ato email, but sharing a blog? never crossed in my mind. awalnya dia nyaranin untuk ngedit blog dia yang udah ada, trus dijadiin milik berdua. tapi gue bilang.."no, i still wanna see ur independent blog". the dealing was done when she said, "ok, hari kedua lebaran kita ketemuan di starbucks n bikin blog" *huhu..another date!*

awalnya seneng gila, iyalah..diajakin sharing blog ama gebetan. tapi isnt it too soon? kalo kata sepupu gue, syifa, gue ga perlu dulu lah share apapun ama dia. lagian, gue juga belum tau dia suka ama gue ato ga. walopun temen2 yang nyomblangin gue 'ngerasa' kalo dia juga MUNGKIN suka ama gue. hahahahaha..taik! tapi ntahlah, mungkin i just have to wait and see and let things happen. hahahaha..*laugh again*, anyway...yah intinya...gue seharusnya 'come back' ke blogging world 5 hari lagi *bener ga sih?* tapi suddenly gue kepengen nulis *curhat sebenernya* dan akhirnya here i am..berbagi 'sampah-sampah' bersama kalian. thanks for reading.

NB: for those who know HER, please dont tell her im here...im deadly serious

FoT